Tanya moy lubov
44 e-mails in 8 days since 14-12-04, endless sms, how many since 1-6-04 when I
wrote to you thanking you for the best time that I had ever had in Sweden, has to be thousands.
I'm sure some people do not communicate this much in a lifetime and learn so much about each other.
What an incredible 6 months since the Traction meeting, I can still see you now from the time we
got onto the boat, found each other, started talking together about anything. Me telling you that I
did not like to do the last presentation of the day and pleased when the guy from bombardier was
nominated to do the last one. Doing my presentation and looking at you in the audience because
you knew how I felt and winking at you with my eye as I finished and went back to my seat.
Sitting with Thomas between us at dinner and thinking how nice you were and how easy it
was to get on with you, and becoming aware of the chemistry between us as we sat and ta
lked, and then getting the tingle as our arms touched when Th left and we sat next to each other, (it felt
like a wow then).
Your don't touch my leg and we don't dance like this in England. Then finally sitting next to each
other in Marie's room drinking some beer, just felt like we were so comfortable with each other even then.
Me going for a walk down to the lake wishing it was with you and watching the sun rise. Our meeting at
breakfast and taking coffee outside, walking around the island talking when ever we could, it was all
so easy. The boat ride back and me saying to David Fearn that I was going to sit with Gunilla and only
wanting to talk with you, and then as you left the boat forgetting your bag, and me not wanting to say
goodbye. A lonely day with Th and C the next day and the Scientist in my car at Manchester Airport
playing exactly how I felt.
After this all I wanted to do was see you again and the next opportunity was going to be Berlin as you
told me you were hoping to go with Pantrac. E-mails to Thomas to find out if it was ok for me to join him
and trying to make sure that we stayed in the same hotel.
Then Zambia, (the map is in your diary, wanted you to know the places I go to). Africa again, arriving
in Lusaka, early morning and knowing that I had to make you feel what the real Africa is like. Flying up
to Ndola over this endless bush and then the drive to Kitwe writing my letter in pen first to make sure
all the descriptions were correct and that you could sense what it is like. Sending the e-mails from my
agents address in his internet cafe using Connies e-mail address which became only our address as all
the business e-mails were on the Brucosa address. Telling you all at Karma about the football competition
and that the winner got whiskey and the last got the hug, you wanted the hug which was just what I wanted
to hear. Getting your e-mails in this hot dusty place was just so exciting that this brilliant Russian girl
was returning e-mails to be in Zambia amongst smiling African's and dusty copper mines.
Back to the UK, e-mail, sms's between us, my walks in the country thinking about you. Your vacation then
in Spb all the sms and then brilliant news you got e-mail connection laid on the floor of your mums room.
Your descriptions of Spb, your friend Katya and all that you were doing. Me asking if you could take some
pictures, (wanting to see you
flying) and then the news that you were staying another week, this while I was on my vacation in deepest
England with no sms signals available and walking km's to get one only for it to disappear and return again.
Your last week in Spb when we both knew that what we had discovered was something that was so very special
and unique that we had to let the chemistry develop its natural way. Our sms's when I went out into town
with my friends, look into your eyes, smell your perfume, touch your skin, kiss your lips and you knew
exactly what I was saying.( the most incredible chemistry between two people).
Finding out about Th strategy meeting in September and knowing that I had to come just to see you, and then
you telling me its your birthday and that you wanted us to be together. ( one of the best days ever ).
Taking hours to find the correct card for you, ( wanting it to be something special and reflect all the class
and style you have).
Planning flowers for delivery to Sweden and getting Russian translations, then finding out that you were not
going to be in the office on the day to take the delivery, (panic, panic) can delivery be changed ( yes
eventually after calls to flower shop in Sweden from shop in UK ). Our first time in 272 we both just
knew that the chemistry was perfect and that we had to be together, life best present. How close we were,
how easy it was to talk, to laugh, to look at each other and to become one together, (perfect chemistry).
Back to Berlin, seeing only you when I came into the hotel, kissing your cheek and the other people
on the table shouting. Innotrans, just could not keep away from you, then 533 brilliant nights being
able to hold you all night, VVBG shirt, it means something in Russian, Th believing it.
Endless tramway ride, paparazzi, and the perfect Chemistry picture, Holding your hand in taxis,
TV Tower, ( its closed, its not closed, its closed, its being cleaned ), Helmut and Tina holding
hands with a big wish from us to be on our own, arriving back at the hotel with Th still in lobby
and then Helmut still there as we tried to meet in 533. TES always finds emergency routes, stairs etc,
just has to get to TRS. Last day our first tears as we left each other, we knew then that we were
survivors and that this chemistry was stronger than we ever thought it could be.
More e-mails, more sms, more telephone calls, brilliant telephone calls, knowing exactly the right
things to say at exactly the right times.
Viking Challenge 50kms on the bike with you, without you it could not have been done, spasibo.
Norway and Sweden in October, hotel bookings plane flights PA plans TRS & TES plans,
sms from Norway to you, constant communications and then brilliant we see each other,
unbelievable chemistry, incredible days and nights 272 again. Taxi rides to restaurants,
Paganini for the first time then dancing in Stampen, electric excitement between two people
who created this aura of chemistry around us. Friday night 272 just sleeping together,
the perfect thing to do at the perfect time. Walking in the park just talking, holding hands, superb times,
just soft and tender.
Arlanda again ( M hates airports ), we knew that we were going to be strong.
More sms- more e-mails, incredible erotic conversations VBG wet M hard what we can do to each other
is unbelievable. Plans for December, tried so hard to get things right but if you really want to do
something anything is possible, ( Tanya we made it possible together ).
December was all about us, planning, wanting to see each other so badly, getting things just right,
272 it just had to be ( then realising when we spoke that I lived in a house with 227 as the number
with my mum and dad). Wish lists completed, meetings arranged, everything about us, having doubts if
journeys would be completed, TRS knew they would, (second sense). Seeing each other on Thursday,
best day ever, my beautiful Russian girl at last. Giving gifts (we both knew the effort that went
into them both and knew that nothing need be said to tell each other). Tanya's plans perfect.
TV tower fish and coconut, great choice, Paganini's again, Exploring old town, Ice Hotel,
Tanya big coat then feeling naked outside, people always looking at us, subway rides,
bus rides, I Mex cinema, lions of the Kalahari, Africa again, wow.
Champagne, wine, laptops on the bed, snow pictures, my work, kissing your back and
neck as you work, ( naked ).
thousands of kisses, hugs, Mr Mc Feast what a guy, 272 BFE, Arlanda Airport, we are strong,
people watching, passport control, people sharing our chemistry, unbelievable, kissing you so soft,
saying ya tebya lublu. Long journeys back, both of us hurting but knew we would survive, then must
do phone calls to share each other.
More phone calls, sms and then Tanya's e-mail today ( always the perfect words), M's tears in office
and phone calls, plan's for next year.
Tanya my love, I wanted to do this today, you are my days, my nights, my good times, my bad times,
my work,
my friend, my perfect chemistry, my forever. Have a nice Christmas and New Year, talk to Katya.
and thanks for the best year of my life.
Tanya ya tebya lublu my Star, my Tiger, my TRS, my VBG, my VVBG, my Lubov xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx